Hello! My name is Bonnie. Welcome to my blog! 🙂

A few years ago, I started this website because I needed a place to write. I've been through some shit in my life, and I like to analyze and investigate stuff. I find interest in analyzing why my brain works the way it does. I learned quite a few things in the past 10 years, and I thought my experiences and life lessons could be a positive addition to this world.

Then 2,5 years of more life experiences happened. It turned out there was a lot more to learn about myself and the world around me.

I will turn 36 next month. As long as I can remember, I've been sensitive, insecure and afraid. My parents are none of these things, so I grew up feeling unsafe and different from everyone else. I was an easy target for bullying, which was perfect food for my issues. The older I got, the more issues and fears I got. I transformed into a perfectly incapable adult. I tried to adult the best I could, but it was quite a disaster. I eventually developed an eating disorder to cope with life. Eating disorders are weird and complicated. Mine solved a lot of problems, but also caused a lot of new problems. It can teach you a lot about yourself. Next year will be my 10 year EDiversary. It took me 10 years to learn that if a road is blocked by a rock that won't budge, I have to find another road. I can keep pushing the rock forever, but if it's too heavy, It's not going to move. I recently decided that instead of trying to find other ways of pushing, I'm going to look for other roads.

Besides issues, I have a husband and two cats. I live in the Netherlands and I love art, music, kids, imagination, science, and skating.

If you're here because you don't know how to do this life thing; I don't know either, but that's ok. Misfits unite!